September 16

The following dream happened early this morning. I think the dream would have had resolution hadn't a tiny bug landed on my cheek, scaring the crap out of me. Some things will repeat, but look past that.

• Ryan- Recapture excitement, freedom, and vitality that is lacking
• Music- positive emotions
• White nightgown/dress- Want to appear pure and angelic toward others
• Engagement ring that is not my own- Emotional wholeness, continuity, and commitments. If on finger, signals commitment to successful new endeavor.
• Cell phone- to use or see is indicative of receptiveness to new information. Also represents mobility.
• Telephone- The inability to make a call denotes communication issues in reality with the person you’re calling.

Involved having a phone call with Ryan, subsequently losing it, and spending a few hours looking for his number through several phones. Eventually, he comes over, and brings me to his house. We talk for awhile, and then he just disappears for a long time. His family begins trickling in, and talking to me about things. The twist is that his family is Latin-looking. His dad actually holds a conversation with me, and suddenly Ryan re-appears. I am wearing an engagement ring, which isn’t mine, and I don’t remember being given. Ryan begins handing out gifts to his family, but there was nothing for me.

At first, our phone conversation is going well, and then the connection is lost. After several unsuccessful attempts to call him back, I end up finding dad, who apparently has his number in his contacts. I take his phone, and discover that Ryan isn't in my dad's contacts. So, I try the telephone, but I don't know Ryan's number off the top of my head. He comes by, wearing a blue baseball hat (which he does not wear), and we leave. Somehow, we end up at his house, and just talk. There are longing glances, but nothing remotely fanciful occurs from them.

Out of nowhere, Ryan disappears. I don't see him for quite some time, and by then, his family starts coming "Home." The TV gets turned on, and little kids are surrounding me. I meet his dad, who is not really his dad. Ryan comes back a little later, with a bag full of presents. He hands one to his sister, who is redheaded, and the rest to other members. I do not receive a gift. It was around this time, a bug landed on my cheek, and woke me before resolution.